The nerve release operation in my legs was a huge success! Just like the elbow surgery, the nerve pain relief after surgery was instant, and while I may be left with some pretty big scars, they are a tiny price to pay.
My poor body isn't used to moving, and my muscles and tendons are a testament to that, but in comparison to living with the constant agony, electric shocks, pins & needles, stabbing pain, shooting pain, numbness, ache etc, a bit of muscle fatigue is relatively small, and something I know the cause, I know how to fix it, and I know that it is temporary.
So now I am faced with POSSIBILITIES!!
I felt so hopeless, with doctors telling me that I was going to have to live with the pain for the rest of my life, I knew that my capacity to do ANYTHING was basically zero.
When my arms were at their worst, the one word I held onto was JOY
When my legs were at their worst, I couldn't seem to hold onto joy, and my word was HOPE
Now I have them permanently on my wrist, the place where I first noticed the pain.
I never want to forget this journey. I always want to remember the place where I was at my worst, so I can look at each day with my new perspective, knowing that God held me through it all. Knowing that it all has a bigger purpose, and that I am meant to do something with it.
If you live with pain constantly, please come and talk to me, I understand.
If you want advice, I am happy to give it to you, but ONLY if you ask.
I do not pretend to be an expert, and I know there is nothing worse than people who don't have a clue trying to solve all your problems.
But please know, you are not alone
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